Dear Sona,
Have you ever tried to understand that why suddenly you lose
a grip on yourself and lose your temper? The thing is you get attached to
it/person easily, whoever…people say you are too hard to gel with but on the
contrary I feel you are too easy to gel with…you know, you get so attached to
it [that person] that when you see they hiding from you.. when you see they
being secretive with you, you can’t take it. You want clear answers, coz you
give ‘em out on their face. And that is what I love the most about you. You are
my honey dip. I know you pretty well. There are really very few people on this
planet who have been my subject of scrutiny. And you are one of them my love. But,
guess what, its not compulsory that it works out pretty much same always.
Everybody has buttons and by trying to gain power on somebody you push ‘em
which ticks ‘em off. Which, in our case, ofcourse, I never intended to press
but did.
Don’t feel bad about it now. Please try and understand what
made me do so. May be I crossed my line and I know I suck at crossing it, like
the chicken trying to cross the road. :D
Jokes apart, don’t be so hard on yourself. You are not the
sona I know. Sona is a little cute innocent girl at heart. Don’t do something
unpredictable even to yourself in the fit of rage/anger. All I can do is accept
my fault, fight the urge to overpower them (as stupid as it will sound to you
coz I know you won’t give me another chance) and let them be. I will leave now.
If this is what you want, I will do this. I want to see you happy. No matter
you are with me or not. I want to see you happy. You’ve been my first love. And
you will always be. Every moment that I live henceforth, you will be a part of
it. Every breath I take, will remind me of you. But as they say, sometimes it’s
a better option to let go. You can’t always get what you desire. And they say,
deserve before you desire.
Sonu, I hope you get the gist of this ambiguity. I’m sorry.
Sorry for whatever happened. It was unfortunate. Pardon me if you can. J
Lots of love and respect…
